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The Logics of Believing.

I never failed to dream big. I never stopped believing that I could even if one moment of my life consisted that I couldn’t. It was all a part of me, of who I am that wanted to go on the way I was. I know for most people, it isn’t always the same thing because I know we were all different. Unique so to say. But uniqueness never did mean that we stopped believing in the things that we could do. Worse is the feeling that what could have been might haunt you.

It’s never easy. Touchรฉ. But I don’t think that the difficulty isn’t bearable. I mean, look at me. I’m still alive. Barely. But still alive. Breathing and healthy. I would be lying if I said I didn’t have doubts. I’d be lying if I just said I told all the opportunities YES. There were times for me when I just hesitated right then and there because my insecurities got in the way. Yeah, I get that too. And most of the time, I tend to shy away because I kept on comparing myself to the person I once was. Physically, anyway. Because I’d like to think things were perfect before and now I’m just stained with my helplessness and unproductivity.

But hence, I was aware that I had to be this one butterfly that was ready to break out and fly. I knew I had it in me. I just didn’t know how to deal with it. Or how to overcome those. Because I feared a lot of things especially being turned down or when I thought this opportunity could be so easy and yet it was hard. All overwhelming. I know for a fact now that things never come easy. Not when you’re superman. But even then. I learned that he had his weaknesses too aside from the common Kryptonite thing. He had a weakness just like any other person in this world and it was his heart for Lois Lane. Now why am I talking about that? The point is, you can never overcome your fears if you haven’t embraced them. And by embracing them it means that you have to love every single bit of yourself.

I’ve always been skeptical about how things worked around the world of reality. Because honestly, before, I relied too much on my mother that I didn’t think for one second what it meant to work hard for what you have. I’ve always been blind. But when I was shoved to see the reality and the difference of relying and being on your own, things were almost always shitty. I mean, trust me. That’s just to put things lightly. Shit happens all the time, but I do not know anybody who never overcame those points in their lives.

I guess that’s just the way humanity goes. You work hard, you get paid, you spend time with yourself, spend it for a treat or two, enjoy with friends, meet someone, break up, get back together, get hitched, you have kids and then the next thing you know, they’re all grown up and then you’re wrinkly and sensitive because you’re old. And then when you’re in the brink of death, you realize that there was something missing in your life. Not that it required a great deal of effort to think into it, and not that it involved regretting you got married but it was the fact that you realized you never took a break. You never thought about enjoying the lone time you had. You were too caught up in the rythm of your busy life that you had to jump into the bandwagon as soon as you saw it coming.

What I’m trying to say here is that when you were brought up into this world, you were born with something that would keep you alive. God gifted you with something that would spark hopes into people and make yourself an inspiration to others. That you make a name for yourself, may not be thru publicity but just within the circle of friends and family you have. You are someone’s one shot to redemption. A good one. And it all starts with BELIEVING in yourself and loving your time in this world. It may be the modern era wherein a lot of things have been constructed to change and words take on new meaning but NEVER be in a rush. You’ll never know a good thing that passes you by when you were too busy looking into the road and looking for the ultimate ride of your life. Because remember that big things come in small packages. So were I you, while we are all still young and capable of taking things slowly, when you get up in the morning, look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself the things that you can do and how to make them better.

There is no price to believing. It’s for free. And for now that it is, the next best thing that you can do to make the impossible possible is to believe that you could. No one’s stopping you. And it’s all because you are your own strength and you have God, your parents and friends in that same order to thank for it. I may not be perfect to tell you all of these things but trust me, as my belief says that I should continue to inspire the people that I love and know and those that I will still meet, I know you can do whatever you want to do. Dream big. A start from the bottom is nothing that you should underestimate. Because the people you look up to in awe are those that had nothing but their hopes and dreams in their hands, pennyless pockets and their heart on their sleeves. Imagine if the world thought that. Think about it. ๐Ÿ˜‰


Just A Random Thought.

There’s always a reason for the things that happen in life. These may be things that we can barely understand but surely, the One up above has a plan for us.

It’s been quite a while since I haven’t decided to fill up my blog as I promised to, but this post, however, was inspired by Claude Kelly’s If I Never Met You and made me reflect on the past months and how my life has never been the same.

If I had never met the people who made a difference in my life, then probably I would not be here, happyย andย contented and writing this blog. ๐Ÿ™‚

What inspires me the most is the thought that every day, as I wake up, I don’t feel incomplete anymore, and I feel so lucky, that it just makes me smile the whole time. I mean, God has plans, and there is nothing that I know of that I would want to complain except for a few pimples here and there, but no matter, I am very much happy, and I think that that’s what’s MOST important right now. I don’t need anything else, just the person who stuck with me til now, and my friends who kept rooting for me when I thought I was about to lose and Temple Run 2 ๐Ÿ˜€

Anyhoo, I think that by summing this entry up, it boils down to these simple things…

  • Do what makes you happy.
  • Don’t let other people ruin your mood. (They just don’t have anything else to do ๐Ÿ™‚ )
  • Keep the important people to you closer, and those that value you back closest. ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope this serves as a reminder to you. Because trust me, there is no better judge for this part than YOU. ๐Ÿ™‚



A New Tattoo.


Hey guys, originally today, I had wanted to post an entry on a little something about my life. But as I was looking for pictures to attach to this blog, I came across this photo that really made me want to embed on me for as long as I think I can live with. ๐Ÿ™‚

Here’s an inspiring quote which I think is so much as self-explanatory.

You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.

As for those who have known me well, they would know what I have been through and all my life, I have been searching far and wide for a loophole. Out of this life, get rid of the ordinary and all. But what I had most reflected on these past few days had been a nail on the haystack. Too obvious.

Having the courage to explore things unknown takes a lifetime’s worth of risks and struggles. Well, of course, that is only based on my opinion. Any other person’s opinion can be far better than mine. ๐Ÿ™‚

But here, you can never be able to call a Life, a LIFE if you haven’t really made some mistakes. And what good are mistakes if you can’t learn from them? Right? I mean, let’s say, who would be stupid enough to commit the same errors again and again? I think nobody would. But the fact still remains, that somewhere out there, some people will barely understand it’s true and definite meaning.

Anyhoo. Letting go of your deep-seated fears could mean so much. But try to be reasonable. Hey, nobody’s perfect! Loosen up. Things can go wrong but they’re meant to be so you can learn. So while you’re too busy being self-conscious of your mistakes, be also aware that somewhere, on the other side of the world, someone could be the same as you, snugged tight in a cocoon… BUT ready to break free and turn into this free-spirited butterfly.

So when you get to this point and ask yourself questions? No. Don’t. Act on impulse and make mistakes. Try and try again. But learn from them. Letting go of your fears can be difficult a task and facing them can be intimidating but hey, where’s the lifeboat when you need it? Your friends and family will always be there to help you afloat and not let you drown. So even a simple “You can do it.” can drive you to the ends without pushing you off to the edge. ๐Ÿ™‚

And BTW, tattoos are an art. They are people’s ways of expressing themselves. It may not be temporary, but hey, Live and Let Live. ๐Ÿ™‚ I got some more tattoos and I wouldn’t mind spending the rest of my life with them. ๐Ÿ™‚

So wouldn’t you think my new tat idea would be great? ๐Ÿ™‚

Something About December.

There will always be that certain time of the year when the wind brushes through your skin and all you do is rub it warm and hug yourself tight. In the US, it will be as much freezing as if you were locked in the freezer with nothing to keep you warm. Well, good thing it doesn’t have to be that hard here in the Philippines. But seriously, the temperature I can take, but being away from your loved ones is probably the hardest thing in life.


Yes my friends, December is here. It’s that time when everyone comes home from a busy day at work to find themselves all cooped up with family for a simple get-together. It’s that time when gifts are laid on the floor under a decorated green tree. Where tiny light bulbs are hung from trees outdoor down to the very corners of the house. It is that time of the year when people are most sentimental and conscious. When kids await by the chimney and hang their socks to see what Santa has in store for them. Or wake up on Christmas Eve and creep down the stairs and remain vigilant over the gifts.

If Santa were real, I think children and grown ups alike would be delighted in knowing that someone out there has his bets in saving all the people in the world’s wishes in over two nights riding on a sleigh with reindeers flying up above the rooftops, delivering packages one by one. People would write wish lists and stay up so late.

I used to do that when I was little. My dad would outsmart me as I hardly really ever stay awake to keep guard on the gifts. Or, those times when he comes home and his luggages are full of things I’d wanted him to buy. And yes, when reading this, you would probably get it that I used to be so much of a daddy’s little girl. I always loved the gifts. I mean, who wouldn’t? ๐Ÿ™‚ย ย But ever since my mom divorced myย step dad, things have been quite different. And often times, there were instances where I’d close my eyes and pray so hard. If it wasn’t my step dad I’d hope for to appear, it would have been even greater to see my real dad stand before me and welcome me into his arms. But that would be for the later part. I’d spare that story for some other time… ๐Ÿ˜‰

But there’s just something about December that I just can’t put my finger in to. But nonetheless, I, personally, have to say that I belong to the category of missing out on the family gatherings now since I am being so much of an independent woman, working hard through the hustle and bustle of the big city. I’d have to say that it’s hard being away from the people I love at this point. Sometimes we just have to endure that. Suck it up. Give up something and something good in return will come to you. The something good thingy might have worked out well because I’ve already seen it with my own eyes. And felt it. An advanced gift, so to say. And if this is what Santa has given to me for being good, then it’s already the best Christmas gift so far. And that is more than what I have bargained for… ๐Ÿ™‚

So, I do hope that before the Yuletide season comes singing before you, reflect also on the things that make your life worthwhile. Probably then, it will be enough to keep you going. Probably, physically alone, but in spirit and emotion, those things keep you the best company and that’s all that ever really matters now.

So, just one more thing… ๐Ÿ™‚


The Little Things


The title of this blog is named after the Nth 007 installment. And why yes, now I do understand the quite complex title of the movie. And dare I say, it has actually quite got more meaning than the last movies I saw. And now, to get to the point, WHY DID I NAME MY FIRST BLOG THAT?

To be honest? I really don’t know. The name was just so complex that I had to make something out of it.

Moving on… for my first ever official blog, what do I say to second chances?

Well, the last month of the year full of gift-giving and food has come. And, such a good start to end the year 2012. But on the rear end, ending November as is was a nightmare. I had my fair share of downfall as such that it most particularly led to James Bond’s supposed suppression from the world and death of image. In my case, it was a turmoil in my relationship and I wouldn’t know where to begin with.

I often thought that mistakes were always given second chances no matter the situation, but yesterday, I realized I was wrong. Not all mistakes have the right to be forgiven and be given second chances. Because some mistakes are committed because of frail stupidity and some well, I don’t just get the point. My mistake was grave, but maybe it was Love that led me to this, love that helped me fix a what should have been waste of time and efforts.

Supposedly, my life was already in circles and I need not add anything to the fire to burn it my whole lifetime. I was quite sure that making the decision to push things through without no further argument was quite fast but altogether it felt like I was shot and voila! Bullet removed. A crazed decision not very often made. But somehow, I managed to keep my hopes up before I even took one step forward. It was of great courage and trust that even with the wrong I made, beau was willing enough to see things through and start again. Although yes, I know it may have been hard for him but I am sure that I know he’s trying to keep his word.

It just leaves me in awe that he loves me far more than anything else I could come up with. And from here, I can begin and start a new chapter. ๐Ÿ™‚



Harrison Ford